This podcast isn’t supposed to be about me.
It’s supposed to be about doing hard things. About breaking cycles. About choosing to move when it would be easier to sit still.
But episode one ended up being personal. Not by design. By accident.
Back in October, I sat down to test some equipment and ended up talking through some things I was working through at the time. I almost deleted it. It wasn’t polished. It wasn’t structured. It definitely wasn’t how I imagined starting this.
But that’s exactly why it became episode one.
For a long time, I’ve had a pattern. If I didn’t feel ready, I didn’t start. I’d plan. I’d tweak. I’d buy better gear. I’d tell myself next week would be the week.
There’s always a next week.
Underneath that was something simple. Not feeling good enough. And when you’re carrying that, you try to control everything before you move. You try to eliminate risk. You try to make sure no one ever sees you fail.
You can’t.
So you stall.
This year forced a shift. With help from people around me, I stopped asking what everyone else would think. I stopped waiting to feel confident. I stopped putting imaginary dates on change.
I just started signing up.
Triathlon.
Spartan.
CrossFit competition.
Half marathon.
Every time that pit in my stomach showed up, the response became the same:
“Fuck it. Let’s go.”
Not because I felt fearless. Because I was tired of standing still.
The times didn’t matter. The finish lines didn’t matter. What mattered was choosing to go.
So no, this show isn’t about me.
But if it starts with telling the truth about hesitation, fear, and finally moving anyway, that’s a solid place to begin.
This is episode one.
Let’s go.